I’ve never really openly
talked about this but here it goes. My story starts with me meeting this cute nerdy girl last year. She wasn’t my type but I decided to give it a go. It was all good and such for the first 4 months of the relationship until we hit a certain point where we couldn’t do it anymore. The connection we felt in the beginning had somehow lost itself with time. We talked less and less until we weren’t even conversing with each other at all. We decided to mutually break it off from there.
My ex treated me like shit for a bit, blah blah blah. She did not want to have anything to do with me, my family or my friends (didn’t even want me to talk to her friends but because they genuinely liked me, they kept in contact with me. I actually took the liberty to befriend them while I was still dating this girl.) I was depressed and I found myself building up hatred towards her. She was always on my mind and it was frustrating. I guess I had developed a deep attraction for my ex.
About two months go by and my ex decides to make amends with me. We began to talk and she had already sensed the animosity between us. I accepted her apology (but in reality I did not forgive her.) Also, oddly a part of me still felt like I was the one responsible for the breakup so things remained awkward.
Since I have recently come to the conclusion that I cannot spend the rest of my life being sad over a failed relationship, I have forgiven myself. It has made me a lot happier not carrying this thought for so long (approx. 8 months) I no longer think about my ex romantically nor do I hate her. I only wish her happiness.
I am fed up with being unhappy and I shouldn’t live that way. Sure life has its ups and downs but you grow from them. Everything happens for a reason and this situation like everything else is nothing but a life experience, one of many that I will encounter as long as I live. We learn to forgive, let go and enjoy our lives. Thank you for your time my followers. :) I hope I didn’t bore you guys.
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penakm said:
Omgg eddy !! Really well written .. Wow that’s all I have to say ..
my2ndchildhood said:
Didn’t bore me. Entertaining read. If your halt that’s great. Not a lot of happiness in the world.
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